some days i would say i just dont know, one thing has become clear to me in my old age. The majority of women HATE their bodies. I am not saying that i am any different but it gets old, stretching ones self out infront of the mirror naked or clothed, pinching anything that one can grab, trying to make fat on the serface of ones muscle jiggle, so that one can tell themsleves they are fat. gross. ugly..undesireable.. reflecting on a conversation i had with my roomate earlier..
Me:UGH I need to go to the gym I FEEL like i am 500lbs...
how is fat a feeling? people pose this question but if your a woman you seem to understand exactly what that feeling is...Insecurity, self doubt,self loathing, dissapointment.. Now when you find yourself jelous of the muscle tone on a seven year old then you have problems.
My conversation about excersise revolved around the way that i look, feel want to look.... instead of what is good for my body. it wasnt.." I want to excersise because i want to have a healthy heart"
The modern day American Woman: Constantly under inspection by her own devices and wishing to be the size she was when she was 13